It is late February and I am in the shower stall after swimming in the club’s indoor heated pool. As I revel in the warm water falling on my body, I try, defeatedly, to muffle my daughter’s voice in my head – Mamma, turn off the water when you don’t need it. I reach out to the shampoo dispenser and the next thing I know is that I am using the shampoo in my palm to clean the outside of the dispenser!
Really? Now I am cleaning objects in the public domain because being responsible for the house and family has given rise to this reflex to be useful – all the time. I cannot just enjoy and be thankful for the warm shower someone else is maintaining. No, I have to make it better. The incident makes me think of other occasions when such unsavory desires have surfaced. I remember being in a relative’s drawing room and telling myself that if I got up and dusted the layer of dust on the tables, I would become the crazy relative forever (if I am not already)☹.
I often find myself quelling the desire to correct the follies, foibles, and imbalances caused by mere mortals around me. It takes effort to restrain myself. I have told myself repeatedly that they are doing fine without my intervention. The funny thing is that I am not alone in this! I have a colleague who reached out to put cream on a teenager’s leg because the dryness on the skin bothered her. And other women in the office who will insist on getting food for a young adult taking a test because he was too much in a hurry to eat breakfast at home.
These are admirable traits of thoughtfulness and caring but it can be embarrassing especially when you are in a restaurant and start telling strangers on the road how to curb their children and/or dog and start cleaning the hostess’s china because you can do a better job.
It is time to learn to just ‘be’ and not ‘do’.
The lockdown making the distinction clear!
nicely written,!! interesting. can relate to it. we don’t realize what we do till we get pushed back by those who get annoyed by it. lots of deep realisations as well!
Oh I sooo feel like you at times but since I am not such an extrovert as you it’s not difficult to curb those impulses unless of course one is with family and friends. Then u can let go and they won’t think u obnoxious, in fact they may be happy if u do the cleaning for them
On a non-serious note, I am tempted to quote from Isa-Upanishad,
” It is (already) perfect “.
Our concerns or efforts to modify it shall leave it perfect only.